I want to invite you to join me in a small exercise.
‘Feel your feet on the earth and the support that the cushion/chair that you are sitting on offers you.
Take a few minutes to intentionally relax and release your weight to your feet and into the cushion you are sitting on.
Gently bring your awareness to your breath and notice how it enters and leaves your body.
Now scan your body from your feet to your head and notice any sensation that feels alive.
Notice if you are carrying any emotion/feeling.
And finally, be aware of any images, memories, or even thoughts that are coming up.
As you become aware of your physical, emotional, and imaginal selves, notice if there is a movement gesture that feels right for you to do. Repeat this gesture a few times, amplify it, slow it down, and as you explore it, notice if there is a desire, an intention, a question, or an observation that is coming up for you, in the here and now.
What we have just engaged in is a small exercise towards conscious embodiment. By being aware of and holding our physical, emotional, and imaginal selves, we are now present to ourselves and to the other in a far more wholistic manner. Our listening is deeper and our empathy far greater.
Unfortunately, in our modern world, we view ourselves in fairly fragmented ways. Broadly we are aware that we have a physical body, we have emotions, and we have a cognitive ability to make meaning of the world around us and make decisions. Our mental/cognitive abilities is almost always prioritised over the other two. We are taught that we ‘have’ bodies and not that we ‘are’ bodies. As a result, the body becomes an object (something that we have ‘control’ over or something that ‘controls’ us), and we are distanced from the immense wisdom and possibility held in our body.
Conscious embodiment is a vital awareness of our bodily experience. It’s a sense of being present with ourselves and others in an alive manner. It’s a shift away from the idea/concept into the experience. We begin developing Self-awareness through an internal compass.
The origins of this work can be traced to earliest human history, when disease was seen as a loss of soul and dance was an integral part of the healing process.
Often the hands will solve a mystery that the intellect has struggled with in vain.
We can practise embodiment through breath-work, working with our five senses, becoming aware of sensation, emotion, memory/thought, interoception etc. As a trainer, I always start my training day with a short movement visualisation to get my trainees aware of the sensations, emotions, and thoughts held in their bodies in the here and now. This brings trainees into the space with a heightened sense of presence and allows them to acknowledge what they are holding. This goes a long way towards owning projections and deepening empathy. But most importantly, they learn to listen to their body signals – a tightening of a muscle, a quickening of the heartbeat, sweaty palms etc.
Interestingly, when we tune in, we can observe splits in the body – where one part of the body may feel very different from another – the lower body is heavy, the upper body is light, the right side of the body feels stiff while the left part is fluid etc. A recent example is after moving for a while, a student in my class observed a ‘dark heaviness’ around her chest while the rest of her body (limbs, pelvis, and head) felt light and joyous. She was struggling with the end of a close friendship and felt betrayal and grief. However, while sharing her movement experience, she noticed that there was also tremendous relief and joy within her at the prospect of freedom from this relationship, which had become stifling in recent years. Experiencing this in an embodied way gave her the strength to allow this relationship to come to its natural end, knowing she was making the space she needed for her authentic Self.
One of my favourite body-based practices is Authentic Movement. This is a simple but profound movement discipline in which the mover moves with her eyes closed in front of a witness. The mover is not ‘performing’ for the witness but instead waits to see what the body suggests, thus experiencing the sense of ‘being moved’ as opposed to ‘moving.’ As the mover moves, she also tracks her movement, refining her own inner witness, accentuated by the external witness who tracks the mover and offers her own responses to the movement.
This practise brings alive the transformation/healing possible with compassionate witnessing. It creates a safe and sacred space within which we can encounter both our wounding and our potential. This embodied encounter of more than one way of being results in a far more expansive sense of Self. We begin to access that part of ourselves that is greater than our wounding, the Self with a capital S as defined by Jung. This practice holds possibilities for psychological healing, artistic impulses, and experience of the numinous.
In July 2017, I was at an authentic movement retreat facilitated by my teacher Dr. Tina Stromsted. She has just led us through the various alchemical stages and then opened the space for our authentic movement process. In my movement exploration, I found myself trying to separate myself from this large mound of earth, which felt like my father, who passed away in 2000. As I struggled to separate myself from the mound of earth, I saw (in my mind’s eye) images of important men in my life (my husband, past boyfriends) escape from between us. This act of separation was heartbreaking, and I was crying for more than 20 minutes without stopping. The pain was incredible, and I wasn’t sure I could continue. However, I could sense the compassionate witnessing my two teachers provided, which allowed me to witness myself while experiencing the most devastating grief. I was finally mourning my father, something I hadn’t done in 17 years. In doing so, I began peeling back my projections of my father on these various men. The experience also revealed the inner strength that allowed me to stay with this pain – something I had become adept at denying. In learning to hold this pain, I began learning to love in deeper ways.
The body holds incredible wisdom and, like the psyche, is always moving towards healing and balance. It is here we store repressed emotion and memory, and other aspects of the unconscious. When we consciously move our body, we move layers of suppressed memory and release unexpressed emotion and energy. When practised in a safe and compassionate space with an experienced therapist, body-based therapy can go deeper than what we understand/know of cognitively.
Conscious embodiment enhances our capacity for emotional regulation, self-reflection, relaxation, response, and relationship. It enhances our individuation process and supports us in becoming more fully who we are meant to be. Our body is our most intimate home, and being at home in our body is one of the most significant indicators of good mental health.
Movement never lies. It is a barometer telling the state of the soul’s weather to all who can read it.
Brinda Jacob-Janvrin
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